I'M CROSSWORD-PUZZLED !
i cried when i browsed through those chat logs. how i wish, it never really did happen, but it did anyways, hoping silently that it will never ever repeat itself again in the future. but, this feelings... it's scaring me. i'm afraid that i'm going to be the one making that very same mistakes over and over again. i didn't call, neither did i even tried to have a decent conversation with him in MSN the day before, nor responding to any single one of his SMS's.
what is wrong with me ? tell me, tell me, tell me ! =((((( !
no doubt, he did tried and he tried. but, i'm the one being extremely ignorant to the maximum here. i think i somewhat need a major therapy/counselling, to deal with this thing called love. is it because i don't trust him anymore ? but, logically, that will be oh, so impossible 'cause i loved him, and definitely you wouldn't want to love someone whom you don't trust at all, am i right ? then, why, azimah ? i guess, there's only one possible answer to this and that is, the heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.
but, just so you know, i'm really very sorry for this unwanted behaviour of mine ! i just want to be by myself for a little while, i guess. i'm making things complicated without even realising it, oh dear god`.
gosh, i'm so caught up from my very own deeds ! weird, am i ? =/
anyways, i know i didn't call or replied this to you, but sincerely, good luck for your bowling tournament today ! have fun like none would, while i'm tormenting myself with these questions and what not. ohwells. and no doubt, i'm missing you like crazy... =((((( !
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